I love you

I love when I wrap my arm across my chest and hold myself by my side and into the ribs on my back

I love the way I run my fingers across my body as if its new

As if I never felt something so soft with so many turns and curves

I love when you find yourself after being lost

When you make art, when you photograph, you paint, you write, you touch and allow to be touched

I love when your determined, when you cry because you want to make change so badly

You see people for who they really are and when they see you they fear

Fear that you’ll expose all their beauty, all their ugly all their complex dimensions

their everything is clear to me by the way they look at the world

I love the way I throw makeup on my face and don’t mind the flaws

I love that I love flaws

Your judgmental but maybe its your safety, maybe you see and perceive but don’t let that stray you away

Maybe your harsh but maybe your too nice

Maybe you don’t laugh enough maybe you don’t know how to cry

Maybe you let go too much and that’s why you hold on so tight

Sometimes you lose yourself

Months going by without your favorite food, without colors

But you always find your way back

You always see yourself

Whether you choose to look optimistacly

you know your worth despite your brain sometimes making it feel like its -42 degrees

You know you can get through the sweet savory thoughts of you not being here

The beauty in the ugly idea of you not existing

you know your flaws and you don’t let them win

You bend them and twist them

You take critisism like compliments

You channel your failures into faith

People find you vulnerable but you can’t cry in front of your bestfriend

You know you need to change and your learning to be patient with yourself

Your learning forgiveness

Learning love

Unlearning you

-Shealyn Shea Lyn